My care worker has changed my tether from strong rope to cables which is at present taking on as much stress as the Fourth Bridge. Billions and billions of tax payers money given away again! This, as anyone with as little as a pulse will realise, there will have to be a payback. Personal tax rate hikes, VAT etc. that will come into effect just at the wrong moment. If this current system was left alone to die or at least got the fright of being hooked up to a life support system it could be rebuilt with a little more humility and honesty.

That eighties madness burnt me to a crisp (my anger management consultant that I got with my severance package said I should use this moment in history to confront my inner demons, I hate using exclamation marks but he told me to use them too). This current Government decision is no more than ludicrous!

I'm beginning to hallucinate Bloomberg screens, I'm having dreams when I was responsible for the Estonian Bourse except I'm naked with an erection hiding behind a DEC CPU. Women with massive shoulder pads come extremely close to finding me, Nick Leeson keeps ringing me about an earthquake in Tokyo on my mobile, the ringing nearly giving my location away to the clicky stiletto's that clatter around me. This dream repeats about three times a week.

Surely this current fiasco began due to our Banks lending as much money to anyone,

even small dogs, encouraging people to borrow as much as possible. Those who enticed us are now being constantly rescued by money that doesn't even exist..........yet. This will be our responsibility over the next five to fifteen years as a direct Government directive and we will all quetch but comply as usual as our earnings will be milked to repay yet another world management fuck up.

We have absurdly believed through history that these people actually know what their doing, understand how this world economy inter-reacts, however they only understand their little component of what makes up the whole. I reiterate that not one of our politicians, economists, city consultants, CEO's, management accountants as efficient as they are at their 'bit', understand the complexity of how it all fits together other than the self survival of their particular element. Briefcases of person centred sordid death full of everyman for himself strategies, everyone of them covering their arses with FYI memo's and Powerpoint presentations of who to blame in a desperate attempt to hang on to their jobs and stay off the severance list.

It's the company politicians and strategists who survive the tempest of a recession, as their associated companies go back into profit after the economy hurricane slowly dissipates. They will be looked at as the suits who 'saved' the business, when really they had been clinging on with their fingernails until the system recovered and not having a clue why it recovered, it 'just' did.

They become the guru's who reconfigure the next economy which in effect means they stylize the future reconstruction of the new system which will be based on their personal flair for manipulation, assassination, middle management genocide, the only one that matters is oneself. The new economy cycle becomes more neurotic and greedy 'Quick take in while it's there' culture hence every economic re-birth gets more corrupt and unstable.

Just let this current fucker die its deservedly, agonistic, embarrassing death, it only needs one more butterfly's wing to flutter.